mosh pits are good too.

"just by letting myself exist in a crowd." Very well stated, that is exactly what I strive for when in a large public setting. At first, it is very uncomfortable, but as I let my mind go, connect with others just on basic human affinity, then it becomes bliss.

ugg. I always assumed I was in introvert because I'm so shy. But it makes sense that I would be a shy extrovert. That explains how troublesome and unfufilling life can be.

I think most of us don't really mind being around people, we might even crave it because we usually don't experience it as often as we'd like to. As long as we don't give them a reason to judge us, or have to participate in small talk, we're fine. My experience with getting to know people is that at 1st I make a really big deal by dwelling on it for days beforehand. In the end, it almost always turns out to be alot better than I had thought it would be and I always kick myself for being such an idiot for feeling the way i did.

I know that logically, the anxiety I'm feeling is unfounded and no one's really judging me or too worried about their own appearence to even care but somehow, I just can't help feel that way and it seems feelings always find a way to override logic... So frustrating...